Vahegurooo
May Guru Sahib do kirpa and soon resolve the issues that are giving you so much dukh in your life. But rest assured that no problem in this world is unsolvable, and that no one who begs before Satguru ji ever is turned away empty handed.
The following is a letter written by Bhai Randhir Singh jee to a sad young bibi a long time ago. At the end of the letter Bhai Sahib gave the young bibi a list of shabads that she should make it a habit to sing to keep her spirits in chardeekala. Please read it and perhaps try to apply the advice in your own life.
Vaheguru understands the dukhee of every suffering heart. Stay strong bhenjee. You are not alone.
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Ik Oankaaar
Vaahiguru jee kaa Khalsa|| Vaahiguru jee kee fateh||
Kumaarhatii
15.9.51
ਅਸਥਿਰਰਹਹੁਡੋਲਹੁਮਤਕਬਹੂਗੁਰਕੈਬਚਨਿਅਧਾਰਿ ॥ ਜੈਜੈਕਾਰੁਸਗਲਭੂਮੰਡਲਮੁਖਊਜਲਦਰਬਾਰ ॥੩॥ (pg 678)
My suffering, most beloved royal child! I have received your anguished letter. I read it and my heart was saddened to no limit. My consciousness was moved and immersed itself in ardaas. From Nitnem, naam abhyaas, and in keertan, my consciousness was very saddened and I was lost in compassion for you. Whatever gurvaak's struck me as being suitable for you, today I have written down. The humble thought that kept arising automatically was that nothing bad can happen to this "bachee raaNee" (royal child). So I've sent all the baaNee with this letter. You too should read this baaNee attentively and let it reside in your heart and go in Chardee Kalaa.
Child, Satguru jee will give his hand and protect you. Shaabaash! You didn't bow before that fake Baba. Wherever you went, you did not falter. This is a sign of your solemn and deep Gurmukh-nature. But child, you showed a weakness: after receiving Khanday Batay kaa Amrit of Guru Kalgeedhar jee from the hands of the Punj Pyaaray, you still drank the mantar-water from that Baba, which you call "amrit".
ਨਾਨਕਅੰਮ੍ਰਿਤੁਏਕੁਹੈਦੂਜਾਅੰਮ੍ਰਿਤੁਨਾਹਿ ॥ (pg 1238)
The Guru's tyaar-bar-tyaar amritdhari souls should not be satisfied with this type of lowly water. Child, if you hadn't already shown weakness by removing your keskee, then Sree Dashmesh jee would have come to your help and you would have remained every breath in Chardee Kalaa. You would not have even gone near these false-hocus-pocus hypocrites at the advice of your family.
ਸੁਖੁਦੁਖੁਤੇਰੀਆਗਿਆਪਿਆਰੇਦੂਜੀਨਾਹੀਜਾਇ ॥੩॥ (p. 432)
This means, sickness comes to all bodies, which are cured according to his divine will. But that massive pain which you have felt, and hearing from you child, I too have felt now, is that your consciousness has stopped from naam abhyaas and won't do it at all. This is due to some hidden mistake of yours. But child, don't become overwhelmed with too much pain. However your naam goes, make an effort to do it. If it doesn't happen automatically, then repeat it with your tongue.
Day after tomorrow, on Sangrand, I'll do an ardaas for you. Satguru jee will help his child. May Satguru jee give me the chance and fortune to hear loving and vairaag filled keertan from your voice again. Satguru jee will help you and fulfil you.
The fact that you didn't bow before that Baba and didn't eat meat or eggs at the advice of your fallen family members [which they believed would help her health] and didn’t falter is a sign of Guru jee's great happiness with you. Child, a naam-abhyaasee's lungs can never be weak. May Satuguru jee give you wisdom so that you can engage yourself in naam's khanda again. No pain or disease will come near you. My blessings are with you. You should not worry. All these sorrows and tortures will be eliminated. May Satguru jee give you faith, conviction and confidence and may he never let you falter.
Child, never forget baaNee:
ਜੈਤਨਿਬਾਣੀਵਿਸਰਿਜਾਇ ॥ ਜਿਉਪਕਾਰੋਗੀਵਿਲਲਾਇ ॥੧॥
May Satguru jee give you even more keertan than before. I hope Satguru jee will make you able and healthy to come to the Delhi Samaagam. I, then, will be very fulfilled and you too will be happy. Child! If you give up worry of pride and honour in front of the world and the nonsense of the faithless, your keertan will go in even more chardee kalaa.
Do ardaas and adorn yourself with a keskee again. Become the wise daughter of Sree Dashmesh jee. Don't keep any other hope in yourself. Satguru jee will give you a Gurmukh husband. Don't try to be too smart [i.e. taking off my keskee will help me find a husband]. Now, with total concentration, repeat the shabads I've attached and also do the khanda of naam. Keep this list of shabads with you at all times. Nothing bad will be able to come near you.
On September 26 I will be leaving Kumarhatti and the next morning I will arrive in Ludhiana. There, in Model Town, house number 126, on September 30 and Octobers 1st and 2nd, there will be an akhand paath smaagam for the birth of my new-born grandson. This will be at the house of my son, Balbeer Singh. The Sangat will gather there. There too your ardaas will be done. On October 6th, with the entire Jatha, we will arrive in Delhi. From October 6th to the 14th, there will be a non-stop smaagam in Delhi. May Satguru jee give you the ability to come and join the smaagam by that time. Now you should return to your residence in Delhi and stay with the Sangat.
Aap daa att piaar kuthRaa,
Randheer Singh
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The Shabads Bhai Sahib sent to this Bibi are as follows:
1) ਸਿਮਰਿਸਿਮਰਿਗੁਰੁਸਤਿਗੁਰੁਅਪਨਾਸਗਲਾਦੂਖੁਮਿਟਾਇਆ ॥ (p. 619)
2) ਜਿਸੁਮਨਿਵਸੈਤਰੈਜਨੁਸੋਇ ॥ (p. 184)
3) ਸੂਕੇਹਰੇਕੀਏਖਿਨਮਾਹੇ ॥ (p. 191)
4) ਤਾਪਗਏਪਾਈਪ੍ਰਭਿਸਾਂਤਿ ॥ (p. 191)
5) ਮਿਰਤਕਕਉਪਾਇਓਤਨਿਸਾਸਾਬਿਛੁਰਤਆਨਿਮਿਲਾਇਆ ॥ (p. 614)
6) ਸਾਂਤਿਭਈਗੁਰਗੋਬਿਦਿਪਾਈ ॥ (p. 200)
7) ਸਗਲੇਦੂਖਮਿਟੇਸੁਖਦੀਏਅਪਨਾਨਾਮੁਜਪਾਇਆ ॥ (p. 1338)
8) ਅਨਿਕਜਤਨਨਹੀਹੋਤਛੁਟਾਰਾ ॥ ਬਹੁਤੁਸਿਆਣਪਆਗਲਭਾਰਾ ॥ (p. 178)
9) ਮੇਰਾਸਤਿਗੁਰੁਰਖਵਾਲਾਹੋਆ ॥ (p. 620)
10) ਜਨਮਜਨਮਕੇਦੂਖਨਿਵਾਰੈਸੂਕਾਮਨੁਸਾਧਾਰੈ ॥ (p. 618)
11) ਸੂਖਮੰਗਲਕਲਿਆਣਸਹਜਧੁਨਿਪ੍ਰਭਕੇਚਰਣਨਿਹਾਰਿਆ ॥ (p. 619)
12) ਗਏਕਲੇਸਰੋਗਸਭਿਨਾਸੇਪ੍ਰਭਿਅਪੁਨੈਕਿਰਪਾਧਾਰੀ ॥ (p. 619)
13) ਨਾਨਕਸੋਈਸਿਮਰੀਐਹਰਿਜੀਉਜਾਕੀਕਲਧਾਰੀਰਾਮ ॥ (p. 543-544)
14) ਦੂਖਰੋਗਭਏਗਤੁਤਨਤੇਮਨੁਨਿਰਮਲੁਹਰਿਹਰਿਗੁਣਗਾਇ ॥ (p. 373)
15) ਬਖਸਿਆਪਾਰਬ੍ਰਹਮਪਰਮੇਸਰਿਸਗਲੇਰੋਗਬਿਦਾਰੇ ॥ (p. 620)
16) ਭਏਕ੍ਰਿਪਾਲਸੁਆਮੀਮੇਰੇਤਿਤੁਸਾਚੈਦਰਬਾਰਿ ॥ (p. 620)
17) ਸੰਤਹੁਹਰਿਹਰਿਨਾਮੁਧਿਆਈ ॥ (p. 620)
18) ਤਾਪਪਾਪਤੇਰਾਖੇਆਪ ॥ (p. 825)
19) ਜੀਅਜੁਗਤਿਵਸਿਪ੍ਰਭੂਕੈਜੋਕਹੈਸੁਕਰਨਾ ॥ (p. 818)
20) ਅਵਰਿਉਪਾਵਸਭਿਤਿਆਗਿਆਦਾਰੂਨਾਮੁਲਇਆ ॥ (p. 817)
21) ਚਰਨਕਮਲਪ੍ਰਭਹਿਰਦੈਧਿਆਏ ॥ (p. 806)
22) ਸਾਂਤਿਪਾਈਗੁਰਿਸਤਿਗੁਰਿਪੂਰੇ ॥ (p. 806)
23) ਤਾਪਸੰਤਾਪਸਗਲੇਗਏਬਿਨਸੇਤੇਰੋਗ ॥ (p. 807)
24) ਛੋਡਿਸਗਲਸਿਆਣਪਾਮਿਲਿਸਾਧਤਿਆਗਿਗੁਮਾਨੁ ॥ (p. 1006)
25) ਆਪਨਾਪ੍ਰਭੁਆਇਆਚੀਤਿ ॥ (p. 826)
26) ਗੋਬਿਦੁਸਿਮਰਿਹੋਆਕਲਿਆਣੁ ॥ (p. 826).
ਸਤਿਗੁਰਬਚਨਕਮਾਵਣੇਸਚਾਏਹੁਵੀਚਾਰੁ॥