Ever since 3rd grade I've been addicted to books(fiction). This probably doesn't make sense, and doesn't seem possible. So I'll have to tell the whole story:
I used to make fun of my cousin who read all the time, but then I started reading...all the time. First I read punjabi books like Sundri, Manmohan Kaur, Yarte da Shathar, but then soon got hooked to English books. In 4th grade my teacher complained to my mom that I read hiding the book in my lap while she lectured. So I stopped doing it while she lectured, but then when we were supposed to work I would finish early and read and would get so into the book, teachers had to call me. Once a teacher got so annoyed he said, "bring me the book,", I handed it to him but then soon couldn't resists and took out another book from the desk. He took it again and when he caught me with another book, he really got mad and said, "Bring all the books in your desk." I did and it made a pile on his desk. Then he made me stay in break and asked me Do you want your books back. I said I don't know, because If I got them back I knew I would read them, but I also wanted them. He gave them back to me and said, "Your addicted" At that time I didnt belive him but I now know its true.
Soon I started reading Harry Potter in 4th grade and my mom would get really mad, "Why are you reading books as big as college textbooks, and not even for school, your gonna get blind." She forbid me to read but then I would read secretly(hiding or at night), but my parents always caught me and punished me. and soon had to get glasses.I couldn't see the chalkboard in class and always had to squint, when my teacher saw me, he tested my eyesight, and he said he was gonna call the nurse. I got so scared, I started doing Waheguru Simran and thank goodness the nurse wasn't there and my teacher soon forgot. Ever since then I would always pray to get my good eyesight back, but still continued to read even during Break/recess and Lunch time as well as class. Sometimes even in PE when we had free time. In school I was known as the nerd with a book. But then in 6th grade we had nurses come in to check our eyesight. I was given a letter to take home saying I need glasses. I threw away the letter because I knew my mom would kill me and call me bookworm and say I told you to stop reading. This is getting long anyway my mom eventually found out was mad and I had to get glasses. Even though reading had caused so much trouble, I still couldn't stop. I would be like this is gonna be my last book and I would read whenever I had free time and I would have to finish my hw in a rush cause I read all the time. I would think about the story constantly and couldn't wait to get back to the story. I would read until my teacher/mom called me then I would do what they asked and run back to book to read again. I hate my reading becasue it takes over my life and wastes it. ONly if I could spend as much time doing paath or simran. Now I'm in college and I now know how to read books on computer and saying I'm doing hw I still keep on reading. I been amritdhari since 5 yrs old and I know everything besides naam and bani is fake, and will eventually lead us away from guru ji. After inspirational camps/satsang I always make a resolve to quit reading. It lasts about a month and then I get so restless and bored I have to get a book. I've read so many books I can't remember, and the story of one or the other is always running in my head. I'm so hooked that it doesn't matter what books it is, I can even read little kid books. Now that I read on the computer, I read late into the night and say it will be my last book I'll finish it as fast as possible.......but then I'm picking up another book.......I thought going back to punjabi books might help me stop so I read Jail Chittian, half of Se KIneya but that didn't work and im back to reading these kaljugi english novels.
sorry its so long...it probably sounds stupid....but I would appreciate anything to help me.