Jacfsing2 ,
I wasn't quite keen to post, but sensed a honesty in your initial query. Whats needs to be corrected is approach.
1.Youths today seeks guidance and seek everywhere except from SatGuroo Granth Sahib Maharaj. You should take your questions and dubidha to Satguroo Granth Sahib and have faith he will hold your hand , provided you listen & obey him honestly.
Not seek guidance from mere mortals on online forums or platform for answers for atamic/personal difficulties.
Thesedays, piety in speech doesn't necessarily mean piety in hirda & character.
Such is kalyug.
This dass has seen this reality with my own eyes.
ਮਃ ੩ ॥
ਅੰਤਰਿ ਕਪਟੁ ,ਭਗਉਤੀ ਕਹਾਏ ॥
ਪਾਖੰਡਿ ਪਾਰਬ੍ਰਹਮੁ ਕਦੇ ਨ ਪਾਏ ॥ .....
Such is the situation today, people want to preach gurmat(various online mediums) to gain 'worldly self recognition' due to the influence of houmei. Such is the heavy clout of maya over them.
ਅੰਦਰਹੁ ਝੂਠੇ ਪੈਜ ਬਾਹਰਿ, ਦੁਨੀਆ ਅੰਦਰਿ ਫੈਲੁ ॥
Then why cling to such fragile support in the first place?
SatGuroo isn't judgmental, he is free of sin & above maya. He is vahiguroo roop himself. Normal mortals no matter how externally rehitvaan, may not be free from clutches of maya. (unless a
genuinely humble athai pehri ).
So seek your guidance from SatGuroo(Gurbani)....and make it a lifetime asool. This is what it means to be Sikh of Satguroo:
ਮੈ ਗੁਰਬਾਣੀ ਆਧਾਰੁ ਹੈ, ਗੁਰਬਾਣੀ ਲਾਗਿ ਰਹਾਉ ॥੮॥
2. Gurvaak's relevant to context of your query:
- Through out ones whole life:
ਸਾਧੋ ਇਹੁ ਜਗੁ ਭਰਮ ਭੁਲਾਨਾ ॥
ਰਾਮ ਨਾਮ ਕਾ ਸਿਮਰਨੁ ਛੋਡਿਆ, ਮਾਇਆ ਹਾਥਿ ਬਿਕਾਨਾ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥- Even while earning Gurmat(bandhagi & rehit) throughout ones jivan, this gurvaak serves as a heavy reminder from SatGuroo:
ਹਰਿ ਹਰਿ ਕਰਹਿ ; ਨਿਤ ਕਪਟੁ ਕਮਾਵਹਿ, ਹਿਰਦਾ ਸੁਧੁ ਨ ਹੋਈ ॥
ਅਨਦਿਨੁ ਕਰਮ ਕਰਹਿ ਬਹੁਤੇਰੇ ਸੁਪਨੈ ਸੁਖੁ ਨ ਹੋਈ ॥੧॥
Chota veer