Today I missed Amritvela

This post is a poor attempt to share what i felt after missing Amritvela

Today i missed Amritvela

I missed an occasion to wake up at the special time when Guru kirpa is showered
I missed an occasion to recite/listen Asa Kee Vaar and cut 84 da gher
I missed an occasion to talk to Waheguru with preet by jap naam
I missed an occasion to follow the hukam of my Father and get is khushi

So I regret the whole day...
I regret because now bad thoughts are going througt my mind with more insistence than when i do Amritvela
I regret because my mind is not in peace and I get angry more easily
I regret because my battery didn't fully charged in the morning so i don't jap naam trought the day
I regret because today my name was written on the absent list on Gurujee 's register

So I do Ardaas to Guru jee, please explain to my mind that without Amritvela he will not get better, protect me from doing bad karam that lead me to miss this priceless moment

Although you may think missing Amirtvela is a bad thing, the fact that it hurts you so much to have missed is a sign you are on the right path. Many people become custom to missing amritvela, and are happy if they even get their punj banian done in the morning. At the begining it is always hard, but as long as you have always have fear of missing amritvela, then eventually, Guru Sahib will do kirpa, and make your amritvela pakka.