I played with the wind, made friends with the trees
The sky was my haven, I lived in the breeze
I drank in the sunlight, embraced the dirt and the grass
I marvelled at rocks, revered the plants
I fell into nature, so she could fill my lonely heart
But I always felt, we were still worlds apart
I searched philosophy, to occupy my mind
If I could find you in thought, then I could make you mine
I made you the universe, the sun and the stars
I made you mother earth, Jupiter, mars
Desperately, I called you the realm of energy
Straining for vision, I still could not see
I thought you must be love, the fake preeth of this world
Oh beautiful lord, you evaded me yet more
I searched for you in joy, looked for you in pain
The one place I didn’t look was in your subliminal Name
My doubts were not extinguished, I remained caught between two worlds
I was creating your image with false and empty words
So I searched for you in solitude, in the silence of my mind
I thought I’d find you in vast and empty inner-skies
Perhaps I could break the dubida, if I focused on this moment
Shatter the glass wall that keeps me lost in delusion
So I walked in stillness, kept my mind aloof
But of your pure existence, I could still not find the proof
I’d still be searching, if not for your kindness
In nature and thought, attachment and emptiness
But once I tasted nectar from inside of me
The dubida ended, you let me free
Suddenly your hymns started shooting arrows through my heart
In love, I sat enraptured, I couldn’t bare to depart!!
When you showed me your beloveds, riveted with love
I became hopelessly enslaved, like an arrow-struck dove
Suddenly my thirst was greater than before,
Clasping my hazooria, I began to beg and implore
When you gave me your name, the pain became more
I needed to feel you, please come to me Lord!!!
You shook me from the inside out, I was in rythm with my soul
I could feel her sadness erupting, I just wanted to be whole
Oh beautiful lord, how could you bless someone like me
You wedded me to my SatGuru, you heard all my pleas
The search is not over, I need that wedding night
Then and only then can there be an end to my plight
I have no one, no one, no one, other than you
Don’t let this night pass by without a glimpse of you
I am tired of the falseness of this illusionary world
Please enrapture me, love, embrace my being with your word
Oh sisters, what should this forgetful fool do
I long for my beloved, but I’m void of virtue
How will I find him in the darkness of this night
Oh sisters, help me, I offer everything, for his sight
ਸਤਿਗੁਰਬਚਨਕਮਾਵਣੇਸਚਾਏਹੁਵੀਚਾਰੁ॥